What I Want.

Some people get to be in these relationships that are so... amazing. They are eachothers best friends, their lovers, their roll dawgs, side kicks... I could go on and on. It makes me so sad when I think to myself out of all my relationships, I've never had that. I've never had a best boyfriend. I want my team. I want someone to love me unconditionally. To take care of me. No one ever does that. I've always been the good girlfriend. The one who is laid back, lets her boy go out with the boys without objection, the girl who can hang out with her dudes friends and they like her, the girl who has never cheated on her boyfriend. The kind of girl who won't even make new guy friends unless they are friends with her dude because I know how dudes heads work, but out of respect of my relationship, why would I need another friend? When my sidekick, thats all I need. I want to be with someone forever. I love being with one person for years. I didn't love the person I was with for years. But I loved being the commited girl. I love being commited to someone, I love to pamper and grow and love someone else. I want to share a connection with someone so deeply it kills me. I'm forever lonely. Even when I'm with people. I'm lonely. I'm lonely.