Friday The 13th

It sucks how fast my mood changes, because of a dude. Ugh I'm so frustrated with myself.

Why can't people just say what they need to say? Are we 5 and in fear of getting grounded? Be a man. Say what you need to say. Don't make plans and then act like we never had them, and somehow I end up feeling bad because I get bitchy. It's soo weird how I go from Fuck you, to I'm sorry. What's that about? Do I have no backbone? I mean I say what I need to, straight forward no sugar coating but then I feel bad about it. I mean what I say, I always do. Whatever.

I started doing merch for some dudes who instantly became my brothers. These dudes are awesome. And they all have GF's which makes my world go round with happiness, and I met these girls and they are sweeter than sugar. It was awesome meeting new people, and I feel like I've known them forever. We all had inside jokes by the end of the night that I'll never let them live down. It was nice feeling like I was apart of something, I haven't had that feeling in a long time.

I've been researching UV tattoos. I really think they are awesome. I want to get covered in them. Haaa no just a full arm and neck sleeve... probably my chest too. Since you can't see them in regular light that makes me happy. I love tattoo's, everything about them. There's a process, find what you want, where you want it, the pain and the aftermath. It's so exciting. I won't ever get anything that visable with regular ink, I don't think I can or want to pull it off. I already know what I'm starting out with, it's so pretty.

Today is Friday the 13th. I don't have any superstitions about today, so it's just a regular day. I'm happy, I'm pissed, I feel bad, I tell everyone Fuck Off.... yup just a normal day.